just the way i am :)

bosen banget ye kayak gini doang tiap hari. tidur jam 2 malem, bangun jam 9 (paling cepet) atau jam 1 (paling lama) :p trus abis itu jadi driver pribadi bonyok (secara bonyok gue pengacara sejati hoho) atau kalo bonyok ga ada acara, jalan-jalan ga jelas ama kakak gue, atau tidak pergi sama sekali. just at home and stuck depan komputer. no call, no text, no wall, no message, no inbox, no mention, no direct message, no comment (asadap, how pity i am!! wakakak). kadang kalo lagi bosen ama komputer sesekali baca buku, entah novel komik majalah atau pelajaran(ini beneran loh :p)

bosen juga punya hati netral. hati netral(ngasal) means ga jatuh cinta tapi ga patah hati juga. semuanya berjalan biasa aja; ga ada deg2an, ga ada berdebar2, ga ada senyum lebar ampe telinga, ga ada nangis2an, ga ada ini ga ada itu. But in the other hands, i still have one special person who always pops in my head for every second(wailah lebay ye, oke, for every time :) i dunno why he never can go out from my mind, my thought, and my heart.. eventhough he has change but i still here to adore, thinking of, and love him. i don't care whether he feels the same or not. Loving him isn't burdening me at all. so, althought he even didnt care about me and what i feel, i dont feel any burden. just enjoy because it is the matter-of-fact dan saya sudah terbiasa hehee ;) lagi pula kan perasaan orang ga bisa di bohongin.. apalagi 'dia' uda kecewa berat sama gue.. mau gue bersujud beribu2 kali kalo perasaannya udah lain karna mungkin trauma, ya udah ga bisa disogok pake apapun.. yah gue sih ga pernah jago nebak perasaan orang.. yg penting perasaan gue insyaAllah tulus.. itu yg terpenting,that's the main things.

banyak yg ngira gue ga kuliah karna males, hahahahaha ga masuk akal jek! mana boleh ama bonyok gueeeeee, kalo kyk gt boleh mah dari dulu gue ga sekolah bolos muluuu hahaha asik juga ye punya bonyok kek gitu -,-
gak lah, gue bukan karna males kok, karna emang ga dapet negri aja, dan gue juga lagi ngejar suatu job gitu deh hehe.. I am a real dreamer, i am on my way to chasing my dream. so i wanna reach my dream as soon as possible, as soon as i can, as soon as i capable :))

bulan september yg lalu gue ikut walk-in interview job 'itu', but i failed in the final step.. nyesek banget rasanya :''' setelah gagal di final step 'itu', uda 2 bulan gue ga ikut walk-in interview gara-gara muka gue mulai bermotif lagi, kata sodara gue-yg dokter- karna stress banyak pikiran, ya ya ya itu wajar bagi orang yg abis menghadapi kegagalan seperti gue -,- target tetep target, mimpi tetep mimpi, niat tetep niat, selama masih ada kesempatan, gue bakal coba lagi, bodo amat apa kata orang, impian tetap dijalankan! *halah apasih :p wish me luck guys ;)

CHAYOOOO CHAYOOOO! :D :D

empty

she always waiting until midnight. just because hope for someone to chat and say "hi, why you still awake?", whereas he even dont do anything at all. well then, he was offline without realizing that there's a girl who always BUZZ him in heart. what a pity girl or what a stupid girl? #OhMyGodItIsSoTrue these girl is me.

the past is a guide to the better future

The past is there for us to learn. For us to remember the mistakes that we’ve made, so that we won’t make those same mistakes again in the future. Don’t dwell on the past so much that you can’t move forward. Don’t let the past hurt you so much that you can’t enjoy the present, and look forward to the future. Remember, the past is a chapter in your life, and not the final fullstop.

it likes a fantasy

It's amazing, some people, they just say these small little things, one sentence and it changes the way you feel about them in an instant. small little words that can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever. it changes everything; nothing between you is ever really the same again, even if they don't know it.

i think you have to know

I hope you know that you were once they most important person in my life for a very long time. You were the guy I thought about while listening to all those songs, the one guy who made me actually look forward to waking up in the morning, you were the guy who could make or break me, who had my heart, but never bothered to do anything about it.

Quote of mine

How in the world did I find someone like you? Why in the world after all that we've been through? If you weren't here with me right now, then I don't know what I'd do. In all of the world, I found my heart in you.